Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Falling and Breaking

Night falls... Day Breaks, Sun rises Sun sets, At the crack of dawn - creeping dusk..... falling in love and breaking of heart.... so on and so forth, it sounds so perfectly true expression has a equally opposite and equal expression in the english language, but then it maybe true, it must be true, the opposite of these words for, they are in use... I know I am not making much progress here in my riddles....

LOVE: As Between MAN & WOMAN.... Why is it called "Falling in love" and then when it doesnt work out why do people have a "Broken Heart" to me the whole "shebang" about this love business as it is seen and practised sounds steeped in a "Negativity". For all this Falling business sounds more like losing ground, losing one's sense of individuality, one's sense of independence, one's rationale to sum up all the follies it reminds me of a loss of identity, Don't we say the same about losing all our wealth or proseperity by using the expression " He/She has fallen on bad days". Doesn't it seem so bloody obvious that when you fall you get hurt , so is everyone getting into this mysterious thingy called love with the given guarentee that he/she is gona get hurt for sure? sounds ridiculously funny to me its ironical that what is perceived to be the most beautiful feeling in the world is distorted to sound and seem so negative. The whole falling bit, is it used because in love we become vulnerable to many things? Well when you fall you get broken bones and whatever else and then it hurts. So Dont Fall, that doesnt mean dont be in Love".

"Be In Love", "Rise in Love" ( Ok fall and rise sounds too cheesy but, i got a point there), Be in love its beautiful, and when you are in Love its so beautiful its so good and you got that big million watt smile on your face You must be positively glowing looking like an electric eel... ( crappy humour bear with me)..and when you do feel and look like that, it reflects in every aspect of your life and you become more positive and the whole world looks positive. So when obviously you feel so good and fine, you must be rising like a hot air balloon soaring high, not physically but mentally and in spirit. Your innate and latent good cheer and positiveness should propel you to do things good (or perceived to be good) things which you werent capable of thinking you should do or could do earlier when you were any joe wasting away under the sun and trying to make money or whatever else you have chosen as the purpose of your life.

So when viewed thus love is a wholly positive thing, but what happens when your love isnt requited...what then? should you go and hit the floor try to fall and break yourself or get broken? Hello this is what happens...you only end up hurting yourself...

I was in love or am in love but not letting the person know how i feel. ends up hurting one another.. as i am not right.. as i am not ready.. as i dont do anything to help/heal.. as i don't know how.. as because i think it's too difficult/hard/stressful but it's not.. im just not ready but it doesn't change the way i feel/think.